I know your secret identity.

some update and random things.

Tue, 23 Feb 2010 17:49:07 GMT

ah, there's nothing to write about except maybe something about mothers. my flatmate just went back home because her daughter is sick. imagine taking an 8-hour flight then getting on a 12-hour bus trip just to take care of someone so precious. that's love right there.

so anyway, i went shopping because i finished a debt (which i didn't even make) worth 200,000 php . i finished it in five months and i never said anything about it before because i already felt like i was crawling on my hands and knees just to survive with the meager salary i make. at last it's done :)

i bought skullcandy earbuds (in purple because jun is gay and i love him) and i love that it envelopes me in music, enough that everything else disappears.

i got my hair colored. it's subtle and red and i love it because when the sun shine hits my hair people go *_* because people here are not used to so much color. here's a photo! ~~it's a big picture~~

i got an epilator. i'm tired to plucking my armpit hair but damn, i cried the first time i used it.

i'm saving up for the 5x10 concert dvd. it'll make me so happy.

there's this thing called being drunk.

Thu, 14 Jan 2010 21:06:56 GMT

well, more like tipsy.

had a really bad day at work. i had a meeting with him (yes, him...my boss, the guy i WAS hopelessly in love with) and really, i haven't seen him for the longest time but he was there and he has the most perfect hands and i can't look at him for long because i can feel my heart swelling with memories. nothing happened before and it's a good reminder that he'll remain a fantasy forever.

so anyway, yeah. stressful day at work.

so we went to irish village and i drank 2 huge glasses of bullfrog. god i love their bullfrogs, it's so yummy. right, so now i'm wide awake and i feel like vomiting but i feel like of okay and tipsy. i'm very confused.

jackie and i talked about sex and love and travelling and how work sucks and no luck with job interviews and pushy clients and dreams and relationships and boys and men and how i need to plan my future.

it was a good night. it was pointless, but good.

oh and the taxi ride home sucked.

A lot of things happened to the world, I couldn't catch up with it.

Thu, 07 Jan 2010 12:04:48 GMT

A VERY LATE HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!

2009 went by in a rush and I spent most of it stalking fandom and complaining about work.

I remember having a dream when 2009 started, I said I was going to places and will be doing
lots of new things but then it went by so fast I didn't really have time to think that nothing really happened.

I must confess, to leave the year behind:

- Sometimes, I stare at notepad and will myself to write something (ANYTHING!) just to make this journal feel alive again but nothing ever comes out.

- I cried a couple of times in the bathroom. Once on my birthday and another time after I called home.

- 2009 was a though year. There's a little bit of guilt in my smile, until now.

- I've been horny all year because sex didn't happen. AGAIN.

- I stopped using plastic bags but I still smoke so I can't really be proud of myself can I?

RANDOM! Things besides work that is eating me alive:

- Love Shuffle
- The Wallflower (manga)
- GANTZ (manga)
- The Graveyard Book
- Avatar (I LOVED THE MOVIE JDKJSDFJKLDFJL!!!)
- The Gay Rainbow Boyband
- Coco Martin

I will be more coherent I promise. Posting things seem so new to me now that I just...don't know.

we're not strangers.

Thu, 01 Oct 2009 04:39:11 GMT

We're not strangers to flood. We've experienced spending a whole night on the rooftop just trying to keep our sanity while everything we own got destroyed. It happened 3 times before but surprisingly, it didn't happen with Ondoy.

I'm thankful but there's a hole in my heart because while we're safe and our possessions are still intact, there are a lot of other people who suffered.

My parents are kind of obsessed with anything that's related to Ondoy, they read newspaper articles, they listen to radio programs and try as I might to disconnect myself from all of it I can't because it happened to us before and I know how hopelessness felt like.

So I talked to my parents and told them that watching and reading and listening about the aftermath of Ondoy would not help the people who suffered. We have to do something.

Tomorrow we'll be donating what we can to help.

It's the best money I've spent in a long long time.

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On a lighter note, goodbye Philippines.